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No regrets

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This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Have no regrets in life. Everything happens for a reason. The hard times build character. The good times makes a stronger person.

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Happiness comes from within

The other day, I said to myself"I have not feel this HAPPY for sometime".
Joy, relieved, satisfied, proud, sad, anger, confused..Those feelings I can recall experiencing easily..But, what is happiness?
When was the last time I feel HAPPY? SIMPLE-PURE-TRUE HAPPY?

I tried to remember the PURE HAPPY moments in my life..
The moment I give birth to my daughter, the moment when a certain someone kiss me on my forehead (that kiss makes me realize that he sincerely care for me and it's worth letting myself falling in love with him), the moments I makes my parent smile with proud, the moments my daughter give me a hug from behind and say"I love you, mama", the moment I feel a tug on my skirt from my daughter and see her looking at me with her puppy eyes, the moments I know there's no other person I rather spend my time with than that certain person sitting next to me, the moment my sister found her happiness.. Happy moments..It is that specific moment when we feel HAPPY…

Letter to Ma...

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Dear Ma,
You know lately I have been a great believer in destiny,
I am a go with the flow “type of girl”
I have a great faith in GOD.
In a greater plan for each of us, and therefore a trust that all will be ok.
Many times in my life, when I pray to GOD, ALLAH answer my prayer fast forward. Instantly.
When my prolapsed was hitting the lows condition, I pray for the best turn out, and ALLAH answers my prayer.
When I was pregnant and knew in my heart there's something odd about the pregnancy, I pray hard for ALLAH to show me a sign. I got my answer.

But, I must confess, my faith is being tested.
I sit here and truly allow myself to feel it.
And I feel physically sick..to the part of my stomach.
I can't breath and I can't think.
I can't found the right word to ask and talk to GOD.
Because I know it is the circle of life I'm facing right now.
Something inevitably... Something nothing I can't do about, but to pray that you and pa will have a good quality life these days...

The thi…

Letter to Ma...

Dear Ma,
You know lately I have been a great believer in destiny,
I am a go with the flow “type of girl”
I have a great faith in GOD.
In a greater plan for each of us,
and therefore a trust that all will be ok.
Many times in my life, when I pray to GOD, ALLAH answer my prayer fast forward. Instantly.
When my prolapsed was hitting the lows condition, I pray for the best turn out, and ALLAH answers my prayer.
When I was pregnant and knew in my heart there's something odd about the pregnancy, I pray hard for ALLAH to show me a sign. I got my answer.

But, I must confess, my faith is being tested.
I sit here and truly allow myself to feel it.
And I feel physically sick..to the part of my stomach.
I can't breath and I can't think.
I can't found the right word to ask and talk to GOD.
Because I know it is the circle of life I'm facing right now.
Something inevitably... Something nothing I can't do about, but to pray that you and pa will have a good quality life these days...

The thin…

Letter to Andi

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WHY DON’T WE BOTH TRY
As I did something terribly wrong the other day.
I know sorry is not good enough.
Promise is so yesterday.

I am a kind of person that have talent in unspeakable words.
And the worse kind when I have to be face to face.
These words just jumping around and I have no control to re-read it and edit or re-editing it.
It will be a disaster..

So here I am trying to speak the unspeakable when you standing in front of me.

Why don’t we both try just to see where it will lead and find out if captivity is what it takes to be freed.
Free to do just what we wish and still have someone to care, and to spend most of our time with the one who always shares.
Free to say just what we think and to know that it has meaning to the one that we are with
And on whom we are leaning.
Free to know we can get mad and still will stay together. And that through all the trials we can both lace and leather.
Free to have a total trust in the one that we are seeing and to always be close to the one we are also …